I used to mention that its better of 3 than 4..

Now i'm sure.. 3 is better then 4..

Finanical Status

Everything on this world voice down to the most basic and fundamental element that keeps us alive, the element that keeps the world going, Money.

Its not just business, education or tax, even family also take into serious consideration of the financial of each.

Seriously, i've made up my mind.

This time, its permanent.

House, NOT home.

Goodbye Ah Ma...

To the best of my knowledge.

Since young, when mummy call say we coming down, grandma will go market buy fish, cook porridge or buy jwee quay.. Cuz she knows we like it when we bite so happily (baby times).. Slowly when we grow up, ah ma buy KFC for us.. Even though she dont have much money.. She still buy 1 meal we 3 share.. Bad thing is that she remove all the skin.. Say unhealthy.. Haha but its a part of the memory i have of her..

Due to my dad's family side very kaobei and the traditional mindset, so my mum cannot bring us back to "niang jia" (female family side) house.. So not long after, grandma start to have problems like not knowing how to return home from market, dont know how to get change of money, forgotten she cooking water half way.. For her safety we send her to old folks home (salvation army pasir panjang).. This is where grandma stay.. I'm in my secondary school.. We visit her almost every week once.. Buy things for grandma.. Fishballs, chee quey, all the things she like.. Right after eating, we ask her, eaten? She say no.. Then when we say, you didnt eat fishball? Oh yaya just eat.. Her memories fade swiftly then..

Not long later, grandma dont remember who we are, who she is, where is her original house.. Salvation army pasir panjang branch soon cant cater to her needs.. Cant take care of her that good anymore.. She's transferred to changi branch.. Main branch for slavation army..

Ah ma is diabetic.. Then when she is sitting at the sofa from morning to evening, her back sore and rot due to her illness.. Soon spread to feet and lower back.. All this years her condition worsen.. Let me fast track here..

- Lose ability to sit
- Knee cap remains at 90 degress cant straighten due to bone harden without movement (sit too long)
- Bed ridden
- Back sore and rot due to diabetic
- Feet rot due to close together and poor medical dressing
- Lost ability to eat / go toilet
- Swollen neck

This condition lasted for 5 to 8 years or so..

Changing of the feeding tube is almost gonna kill her..

Now, grandma finally get to eat rice, food, buns, fruits and also have a big house instead of 1 room 1 hall de.. =)

RIP Ah Ma..

3 yrs of poly life just passed like tis..feel like doing alot of things..=)

Official Dinner

A few things to look forward to...

- final paper of diploma (thursday 11am)
- freedom at thursday 11am
- official dinner at dear's house? Thursday night
- friday night outing with wh + derrick
- sat night pub with the guys..

Hmm... Not bad...

Finally

Finally...

No more hiding...
No more cannot this cannot that...

I see the light...

=D

YEAH~!

Gravity

Its a funny thing.

Wonder if other planets having the same thing, gravity.

Gravity. Means the higher you go, the harder you fall. Its simple physics.

Once i remember watching a documentary, it says every 10 story you drop (in gravity pull) it doubles your weight..

Meaning to say, if i jump from a 30th story building, my weight will be

{ [ (65 x 2) x 2 ] x 2 }

520kg impact on the floor..

Basically, so much of crap, gravity means, the higher you go, the harder you fall..

Just like a plane coming down from the sky... A plane with super sonic aerodynamics that glide up into the sky automatically with the wind...

Silver

Shuttle Run - 10.4 seconds (4 points)
Standing Board Jump - 217 (2 points)
Sit-up - 35 (3 points)
Sit & Reach - 42cm (2 points)
Pull-Up - 7 (3 points)
2.4Km Run - 12mins 18 secs (2 points)

Total points = 16 points

Silver.

11 months BMT.

Problems

So much problems recently.

PBIL coming and worse part is this is totally something we got no confident in doing at all.. Manage to solve 50% of the broadband com PBIL.. Coming up next is IP Phone and Firewall.. Heard from BiFei that nobody on the previous batch complete firewall module PBIL.. Damn.. Doubt we can do something out of it with the useless teacher..

BGR... Something which can be the most easiest and the most complicated stuff on planet earth.. JiaLin kena troubled by it quite badly.. But i dont seems to understand her.. Want, dont want, want, dont want.. Hope she can make up her mind and just stick to it dont change anymore.. Break - Patch is just pure child play thing and looks stupid on the appearance to outsiders.. Its the same thing between me and SJ.. Abit break, then patch then break.. Outsider see le 1st impression is, typical ah beng ah lain pattern, and immature.. Quite is very true for SJ case.. Quarrel purposely walk off want you chase after to talk.. Cant stand there talk..

WH also facing the same thing.. Stupid + Retarded + Childish + Inconsiderate + Selfish GF... LOL.. Simply wont use brain think before doing things or giving attitude.. Wait till you kena the situation then see how you will react.. Simply the same as SJ.. Attitude for no reason and unreasonable.. Now will tahan, 6 months will kpkb, 1 year will dulan, 1.5 year sure fuck care.. 2 years is totally ignore, quarrel = anything type..

As for me, i dont know if i'm a good boyfriend.. Things i did that i thought my girlfriend will like turns out to be the opposite way.. Even she so seldom blog, she blog she hates herself.. I dont even have a are clue about what is going on.. And i really meant a single clue also dont know.. This is me.. My relationship life.. I am always asking for more time, more places more sunlight..

AX gift, i got the wrong size for dear.. Size also can get wrong.. Need mafan dear go with me to town AX shop TRY change.. Dont even know can ma.. If cannot then wasted.. So much effort of element of surprise but cant..

FYP need waiting for Dr Yang to get secondary marker then can present.. As long as 1 day the FYP not settle, machiam something BIG not done and settled yet..

Then money loan out not returned.. All like that.. Nvm.. No problem.. I can afford losing that amount.. But one day you need it again, even for life saving, you can kiss it goodbye..

Napfa i fail all stations so thinking of just go anyhow whack try.. Pass Fail also dont care.. I dont mind go in earlier le.. Let them train ba.. Outside i simply dont have the determination to do it myself.. But good thing is, i can swim le.. Hope dear really will pei me go swim together soon..

What else? Hmmm just kinda hate people who come find you when they need you only.. Dont wanna mention names but quite the standard few..

I seriously dont see the point in celebrating wedding anniversary if its just 1 day romantic and kpkb the rest of the days...

Wah seems like i got alot of small things to complain and rant about..

Either i think too much? Or its facts? I dont give a shit anyway.. Its a place i can throw things out at..

Quite afew paragraph.. LOL.. Each paragraph is 1 fucking problem.. so lets count.. 10? lol.. Or so...

Some good news
I CAN SWIM ALREADY

=D

Still, bad mood though.. Mainly cuz i go out kena nag nag nag.. Whatever mood also gone..

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F-M-L

i HATE myself....