the more the merrier? not always...

other people also grow up in family.. some dont but sometimes i wonder if they're better off, in some ways...

unlike mine... unlike dear's...

our family are just fucked up in some ways...

by scolding doesnt help change the situation...

they just dont get the logic..

Fuck it.. Let the dog bark, once it finish, its peace quiet again..

keyword to a relationship

u-n-d-e-r-s-t-a-n-d-i-n-g

Off Day Tml..

Spend money again..1 top ytd n 1 pair of shoe today..=(

y money are so hard to earn??y is my life so different like others??

I m so tired..really getting tired alr..

MST is nxt wk n yet i haven started studying..try to do pyp but cant even get to finish 1 whole qn..

My body is failing..every part is aching n giving mi probs..haiz.

OFF day tml.Shall get started..

haix

dont know if dear got time to study..
dont know if she can cope with the upcoming exam..
dont know if she knows i'm pissed with her working on the MST week even though some days no exams..
dont know what i can do to let dear stop working so frequently..

dont like ICD.. dont like programming..

sucks.. totally cant study at all.. fuck!

I NEED PPL!!!!!HELP!!!!

Off Game

This few days has been very hectic... Mood is really on the edge... Trying my best to keep cool, keep things nice and neat... Workload also diverted to my best assistant Mr. Loke... Studies haven started nor commence yet... It's gonna start tml...

Had my original plan but screwed up but certain issues... I dont want also but its not like i have a choice... Anyway my darling got to work on certain days so no difference... Really hope she can study instead of work...

Monday got to fucking waste one whole day... Hope can do some work there... After that will be studying again and again.. Been a long time since i last ran... Maybe gonna try it tml...

Today is our 1 year 1 month date of together... Maybe its me only ba... I am not happy... Deeply inside i am not joyful nor smiling... So much thing and pressure and just seems life is just bored... Maybe also today forgotten something i promised dear and she kinda upset... Which makes me the worse of today... I cant blame her... Its my fault...

Brother said dad and mum got complain that i didnt talk to them this few days... Once come home eat, bath and stay inside my room... I disagree... What is there to talk? 1 bastard just keep saying whatever job i do is not worth it... The pay so low... You think this type of job can do meh? Cannot do la.. Pay so low... BUT, bear in mind that if i stay at home, i dont earn a single cent...

Recently the way they do things are just wrong... Totally fucked... Let me give a few examples...

They went to changi visit my uncle.. On the fucking way home, they can drop by jurong point to buy the cake they wanted to eat... BUT INSTEAD, they ask me if i going to meet MJ eat, after that at 8pm buy the cake and come home and go for movie at 8.45pm... WHAT THE FUCK... Cant they just get it on the way home???

I cant study at home... Ask me do this... Do that... Help this... Help that... And my favourite neighbours are just sooo noise friendly... Nvm nvm... I got some rock musics taken from Pui Ling... I will share with them tml...

I cant study outside cuz my laptop cant last that long therefore i need adapter and external power... BUT hard to find one spot... Even if i do, at library, i need toilet and meals... Alone is just hard... How long can you tahan alone study outside without interval breaks of chitchat and rest?

Pissed... Cant do anything right... Memory is failing me for no reasons... No mood to game... No mood to study... I know there's a need to exercise but also no mood... _|_ to the fucking trip to telok blangah on monday... Burn in hell...

Next week... I said i'm not free... I've also made my own plans... Ask me go accompany grandma cuz auntie going malaysia... MY FUCKING PROBLEM AR? Whole ONG family got 100 people cant find a single one? All busy? SO AM I!!! I compromise 1 day, still want 2... Go fuck yourself...

Fuck you, fuck them, fuck the whole family who are bunch of idiotic hypocrites...

went orchard to accompany dear for work..gng to those restaurant to ask the person in charge to fill in the survey form..frm FE to lucky plaza to shaw center to hereen and back to shaw center..omg..so tired walking around..had sum dessert at hereen..

n our mr loke is super gay..strawberry sundae..omg..haha..

head to wheelock place after ws left..went in a toy shop..i wan buy all the toys there..super cute n nice..=DDD

HSH after tat..

i m super tired alr....

Lastly..

Happy monthsary my dear..1 yr n a mth..=D

haix

Dont know why.. Everything seems so slow.. Not that i dont want to rush it out but just slow.. The nature of my work needs to compromise to the business owners timing therefore i cant do much when they're not free...

So far 3/36 done...

Tml got 4 confirmed and 1 pending..

Friday got 5 confirmed...

Still far from finishing line.. Monday and tuesday will be working with Redzhuan for some IBM moving PC free-lance job.. Looking forward till all the pay come in.. Hopefully, can see the 4 digits..

Right now here i am at JP Mcdonalds blogging while waiting for the time to strike 9.30pm where i go fetch my little princess home.. Tml's appointment is at 11am at macpherson road.. GG..

now plotting my direction points for tml so wont lost my way at some [bird dont lay egg] area..

=)

3rd week after that wont work.. Will just solely chiong studies.. hopefully my dearest princess will keep her promise and NOT work on the 3rd week.. Gonna go off now..

HAHA! Manage to push the 11am appointment to 1pm.. So tml can go ICD learn new things..

~gone~

Non-Stop Working...

Today onwards will be working all the way and tired till tuesday le.. Here is the time table..

Wednesday = Setup booth at suntec for IT Show (PCC)
Thursday = IT Show
Friday = IT Show
Saturday = IT Show
Sunday = IT Show + Packup to funan (maybe)

Sunday estimated end time = 2am if got packup..

Monday bbq = overnight tuesday morning reach home..

i will drink more water de.. dont worry about me.. :) miss you too

~hugz~

gonna be days tat i wont be able to c u..=((

take care of urself..drink lots of water..

i have gain back my 1kg...=(((

I m FAT!!!!!

IMISSYOU...

Bad Day...

Worst day in my life..i m tooo greedy..should nt have increase the dosage..

Worst Day Worst day...

i m feeling so weak n strength-less...

off to slp..

sry to make u worried..

hmm..just finishing editing ICD..

tml will be the 1st day of holiday...n i will be working..so sad life...but wat to do..i have to..
i wish to do alot of things..but but but but i really cant cant cant..

i m envy n jealous..

i alr try my veri veri best alr..

IF onli i can be like others..IF onli i have nt gone through all this shit..

Sheena u r right..the if is a powerful word..haha..

enough of all these ranting..

Off to slp..

i love u my baby boy..

GD NITE!!!

Hope ur mood get better..=D

sianz

Totally no mood do anything..

ICD phase 1 can redo.. suppose to get it done but didnt.. either dota... or sleep.. or wlak around the house rotting..

going to start later... cuz maybe still need help dear do.. so muust chiong finish my own first..

training? starts tml i guess? Today raining.. doubt will be able to make it for Napfa..

Short Post. Very short one.

Condemn the milk tea by Full House.. No to it!

Sheena stomach ache..
My princess and me feel like vomitting and unwell...

=(

i hope dear will recover soon.. Not so tired... :(

*hugz*

Role play...

i m so tired recently...

holidays coming soon...online quiz for network management..=)

roleplay for tml...n i still dunnoe wat i will be talking tml..hope i can smoke through...

i m feelin so so so.....

PAY DAY soon!!!=)))

N if i have neglected u for tis few days..i m sry..i dun mean it..

i m way tooo tired alr..my body is nt in a gd condition alr..

will try to get back..=)

love u..