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This few days has been very hectic... Mood is really on the edge... Trying my best to keep cool, keep things nice and neat... Workload also diverted to my best assistant Mr. Loke... Studies haven started nor commence yet... It's gonna start tml...

Had my original plan but screwed up but certain issues... I dont want also but its not like i have a choice... Anyway my darling got to work on certain days so no difference... Really hope she can study instead of work...

Monday got to fucking waste one whole day... Hope can do some work there... After that will be studying again and again.. Been a long time since i last ran... Maybe gonna try it tml...

Today is our 1 year 1 month date of together... Maybe its me only ba... I am not happy... Deeply inside i am not joyful nor smiling... So much thing and pressure and just seems life is just bored... Maybe also today forgotten something i promised dear and she kinda upset... Which makes me the worse of today... I cant blame her... Its my fault...

Brother said dad and mum got complain that i didnt talk to them this few days... Once come home eat, bath and stay inside my room... I disagree... What is there to talk? 1 bastard just keep saying whatever job i do is not worth it... The pay so low... You think this type of job can do meh? Cannot do la.. Pay so low... BUT, bear in mind that if i stay at home, i dont earn a single cent...

Recently the way they do things are just wrong... Totally fucked... Let me give a few examples...

They went to changi visit my uncle.. On the fucking way home, they can drop by jurong point to buy the cake they wanted to eat... BUT INSTEAD, they ask me if i going to meet MJ eat, after that at 8pm buy the cake and come home and go for movie at 8.45pm... WHAT THE FUCK... Cant they just get it on the way home???

I cant study at home... Ask me do this... Do that... Help this... Help that... And my favourite neighbours are just sooo noise friendly... Nvm nvm... I got some rock musics taken from Pui Ling... I will share with them tml...

I cant study outside cuz my laptop cant last that long therefore i need adapter and external power... BUT hard to find one spot... Even if i do, at library, i need toilet and meals... Alone is just hard... How long can you tahan alone study outside without interval breaks of chitchat and rest?

Pissed... Cant do anything right... Memory is failing me for no reasons... No mood to game... No mood to study... I know there's a need to exercise but also no mood... _|_ to the fucking trip to telok blangah on monday... Burn in hell...

Next week... I said i'm not free... I've also made my own plans... Ask me go accompany grandma cuz auntie going malaysia... MY FUCKING PROBLEM AR? Whole ONG family got 100 people cant find a single one? All busy? SO AM I!!! I compromise 1 day, still want 2... Go fuck yourself...

Fuck you, fuck them, fuck the whole family who are bunch of idiotic hypocrites...